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My dearest friend.
2 min read
You were there when I was scared and even when I swore I never cared.
You tolerated me to the end where not even I knew me.
You always were there to help me to understand not everything I believed was reality.
In return I didn't do as much for you as I should've. When all for me was lost you were my peace bringing dove.
This sounds rude but I suppose I just confused it for love.
Don't get me wrong though You are a good friend and person nonetheless.
Because though I know love dies, I realize My mind was full of my own lies.
It's like you said if I loved you would that be something I would do?
I not saying how I didn't love you for spite. I'm saying it to admit you were right.
Not everyone works the same Much less -fixes- the same.You showed how much I contradict myself and yet mark my own thoughts as tame.
You truly were the greatest friend I've had. Every time I think of my screw ups I get so mad
Then try I'd to convince myself it wasn't me it was you. Only in the end to find out none of it was true.
Everytime I'd try I'd always see it wasn't you it was me. Sounds pretty corny huh? Just know That the day you are officially sick of my sh!t you will always be my number one bruh!
You tolerated me to the end where not even I knew me.
You always were there to help me to understand not everything I believed was reality.
In return I didn't do as much for you as I should've. When all for me was lost you were my peace bringing dove.
This sounds rude but I suppose I just confused it for love.
Don't get me wrong though You are a good friend and person nonetheless.
Because though I know love dies, I realize My mind was full of my own lies.
It's like you said if I loved you would that be something I would do?
I not saying how I didn't love you for spite. I'm saying it to admit you were right.
Not everyone works the same Much less -fixes- the same.You showed how much I contradict myself and yet mark my own thoughts as tame.
You truly were the greatest friend I've had. Every time I think of my screw ups I get so mad
Then try I'd to convince myself it wasn't me it was you. Only in the end to find out none of it was true.
Everytime I'd try I'd always see it wasn't you it was me. Sounds pretty corny huh? Just know That the day you are officially sick of my sh!t you will always be my number one bruh!
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Sorry one sec
1 min read
My new character are going to be given descriptions I just suck at typing on phones where I had to take the photos.
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W-hat H-append Y-esterday?
4 min read
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Maybe I hurt somebody, Because you seem pretty mad at me
I'm confused as we get in the car. Please "what did I do?"
We're in the car. We travel far.
"Why are we here?" I know where we are but not why. I tell myself to try to calm down.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
I feel angry as I see you talking to this lady.
She asks "Why did you do that?" "I didn't." I said.
She asks why I feel the need to lie even though I don't think I am.
I know even if I did I wouldn't remember. So that's what I told her.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Before long I see a familier sight. They took me in and took my stuff.
I see the old staff they welcome me back. It's been so many times I'm no longer scared.
I make new friends and help when possible.Before long though I start acting up. I feel trapped.
I like the people and staff. but I dont like being talked to like I'm crazy.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
I act out as they call it, but take it too far. Now it's all dark.
I come back to. And they're on top of me. What did I do?
I remember being angry and saying things while flailing a bit.
Then a girl said something, and I hurt her. I don't know how, but others seemed scared.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
After some changes in meds and being good I come home.
You seem glad to see me until later atleast.
It's been three days since I got back. I got angry and yelled because you called me a idiot.
You said "I wish you could just go back." I told you "Me too"
Why can't I just calm down. My skin tingles my breathing holds.
I start walking. You look for me later to bring me back home and find me.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
I take walks regularly now even when you try to stop me.
I always come home so there's no problem.
Walking calms me down. At least it used to.
Eventually you started yelling "just go" when you got mad.
My walks were no longer a choice. You sent me out in drizzle, snow, rain, night, and day.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Another day you're mad and yell "GET OUT" I refused. It was cold out there.
You yell more. Then start telling me how useless I am.
I feel dizzy and tingly. Just like before I do something bad.
I just let it happen this time. Before long I'm myself again and there are cops.
Eventually they leave and I'm medicated again and fall asleep.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Were back at that place again except I don't care. I've been here at least three times since I was 13 and I'm only 15.
Back through the process over and over. I'm 19 now.
I no longer live with you. I hate to think I might hurt anyone else.
But here I'm less scared and angry. It makes me wonder about you.
I haven't hurt anyone. So if I did you, I must of had a reason. "What did I do to you?"
What did you do to me? And why?
What happend yesterday? I know WE did something but "could you tell me what?"
Maybe I hurt somebody, Because you seem pretty mad at me
I'm confused as we get in the car. Please "what did I do?"
We're in the car. We travel far.
"Why are we here?" I know where we are but not why. I tell myself to try to calm down.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
I feel angry as I see you talking to this lady.
She asks "Why did you do that?" "I didn't." I said.
She asks why I feel the need to lie even though I don't think I am.
I know even if I did I wouldn't remember. So that's what I told her.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Before long I see a familier sight. They took me in and took my stuff.
I see the old staff they welcome me back. It's been so many times I'm no longer scared.
I make new friends and help when possible.Before long though I start acting up. I feel trapped.
I like the people and staff. but I dont like being talked to like I'm crazy.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
I act out as they call it, but take it too far. Now it's all dark.
I come back to. And they're on top of me. What did I do?
I remember being angry and saying things while flailing a bit.
Then a girl said something, and I hurt her. I don't know how, but others seemed scared.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
After some changes in meds and being good I come home.
You seem glad to see me until later atleast.
It's been three days since I got back. I got angry and yelled because you called me a idiot.
You said "I wish you could just go back." I told you "Me too"
Why can't I just calm down. My skin tingles my breathing holds.
I start walking. You look for me later to bring me back home and find me.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
I take walks regularly now even when you try to stop me.
I always come home so there's no problem.
Walking calms me down. At least it used to.
Eventually you started yelling "just go" when you got mad.
My walks were no longer a choice. You sent me out in drizzle, snow, rain, night, and day.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Another day you're mad and yell "GET OUT" I refused. It was cold out there.
You yell more. Then start telling me how useless I am.
I feel dizzy and tingly. Just like before I do something bad.
I just let it happen this time. Before long I'm myself again and there are cops.
Eventually they leave and I'm medicated again and fall asleep.
What happend yesterday? I know I did something but "could you tell me what?"
Were back at that place again except I don't care. I've been here at least three times since I was 13 and I'm only 15.
Back through the process over and over. I'm 19 now.
I no longer live with you. I hate to think I might hurt anyone else.
But here I'm less scared and angry. It makes me wonder about you.
I haven't hurt anyone. So if I did you, I must of had a reason. "What did I do to you?"
What did you do to me? And why?
What happend yesterday? I know WE did something but "could you tell me what?"
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Are You My Mother?
2 min read
Amy- I may not know you well, but I do like to dwell. On smaller subjects to larger ones. Your burden must weigh at least several tons. I understand you might feel as though it could have been different had I remembered more. Though due to lost memories of time everything sounds like fables of lore. Not only from you, but from others too. I'm sorry to say but I'm so confused on the matter of mom versus mother. Though I care for you both I seem to be stuck between every other. Every other you might ask. Collecting data is no easy task. I have heard rumor to story to now from faded glory. Though no story is truly dependable due to my process not even the state could get full access. Not that I've bothered with that extension. It just occurs to me lies were documented due to past tension. I no longer wish for the knowledge of the past.Dwelling on that will not help the future last. I wish to be friends and after all meets ends, I could stop and say I finally knew you that day.
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Wanna play huh?
2 min read
I laugh, looked my demons in their eyes, stood firm, and said try again. Your best still won't destroy me. I'm tougher, meaner , and crazier than you all put together. Because that's what I am. I am the epitome of all of your antics, schemes, and hate. Because not only you taught me but also all I've come across.
Those with stronger demons, those with louder demons, and those with smarter demons. Each shaped by their own. They past me their stories of nightmares and dreams, cheers and cries, smiles and fears. I know what to do and how to handle you. I not just had the opportunity to learn from my own mistakes but also from those around me. Now hit me again, I'm ready. You'll just make me stronger. Try something new and I'll just learn something new.
I may over analyze but that just prepares me. Are you ready? Let's play more.
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